The week I connect with new people
If you had said 50 days ago that I would have made it today, I wouldn't have believed you. I'm halfway through my goal of 100 sober days and I have to say, life is getting better. I'm more present with my kids and husband, managing my BPD better (although I still struggle). I've read 4 books about sobriety (quit lit) and I'm about to embark on a new sober journey...no more smoking!
The past few weeks have been quite an emotional rollercoaster, a fallout with a friend (not a friend) and a beautiful wedding. I won't dig too deep into the first part as I've grown from it and can tell you, not everyone is your friend. I kind of knew this for a long time, but I guess I thought that people change. Let me tell you, this is 100% true, but what if it's YOU that changed? I'm on a path to greatness, and you can't bring everyone along. But I've learned that the world is full of people waiting to be a part of your life and world.
The wedding I attended last week was "amazing." I wasn't too nervous about alcohol and had gotten myself some AF Prosecco (let me tell you it's brilliant). It really helped me to feel included, and at one point, my husband thought I'd had a drink (I didn't). I had a few people worried about me, but I tried to reassure them that I was absolutely fine and had this under control. It was even quite funny to see people drunk that I'd never even seen drunk in 17 years.
Alcohol is all around us, and I even have a cupboard full (which we kept so we can offer drinks to our guests). It doesn't bother me that it's there because if you truly want to do something, you will do it.
Much love
BPDA
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